through the distance

in any point in our life, most of us have gone through what's commonly known as "long-distance relationships". many have gone through this, or maybe even still is in one. many are OK with the situation, many are strongly opposed to the idea. i myself never really been in one. at least not in different countries. but i couldn't imagine how hard it would be to carry a long-distance relationship. jaman sekarang mungkin lebih enak, cuz the technology is more advanced with the messenger or sms. but still i can't imagine to be in this type of relationship.

i used to think that i will be OK to be in that kind of relationship. but then i realized.. humans are communicating creatures. even when we see each other all the time, we have trouble communicating properly. sometimes you don't even communicate with the person who sits in the cubicle next to you, or the person standing with you while queueing for taxi, or worst, you sometimes forgot to communicate with your own parents or siblings. though i'm not saying this applies to everyone, i know it wouldn't apply to me. cuz sometimes i forget to communicate verbally. i don't know exactly when it starts, but i got to the point where i don't want to talk on the phone unless it's necessary. my used-to-be-long email messages, now is shorten into only one or two lines.. just enough to say something without saying too much. now imagine what i'd do if i'm in long distance relationship! bisa2 pacar gue lupa that i'm exist.

so now i change my mind. long distance won't work for me. i don't think i can handle one.

but then a friend asks me.. what if you find someone you really love that you believe that he's the one, but then he has to move far far away from you?

i stumble to answer this question ... but then i think if he's worth keeping, then i'll do the distance with him. cliche.. but if we're meant to be, we'll go through it together. how? i dunno, but i guess we'll find a way to do it. i'm just still crossing my fingers it wouldn't happen to me, though.